Oh, you again...

Last night, Scott and I went to dinner at Central Market. While he was getting up to get our food, I turned to tell him something and realized we were sitting two tables away from a couple of Rob's best friends. It was almost worse than if I had run into HIM...really, really awkward.

I pretended not to see them. They pretended not to see me.

I don't know why. Things between Rob and I are amicable. I just didn't expect it. One of those "hit you in the gut" moments.

This happens a lot when I grocery shop. So many Freescale people live in my area so I see a lot of them when I run errands. They pretend not to know me. I pretend not to know them. Why is that?

On another note, I am beginning to think about where I was a year ago...on my 4 month of unemployment. Yet in spite of that, I was pretty content. It was Spring time. The weather was amazing. I was running everyday. My house was always clean. I was cooking everyday. Now...things are so different.

Don't get me wrong. I really do enjoy my job. I LOVE my Scotty, who I would have never met, if it weren't for Apple. Yet, I yearn for those few months of freedom I had last year. I miss cooking. I miss having a clean house. I miss being home when Lauren got home from school. I miss

Life is weird. People are weird.

And this town is too effing small.....
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Long time, no post...I suck. But I have a really good reason. No really...see what had happened was...

Actually, not much is going on. Things are still good with Scott. We just got back from Maui last week. We had a great time. Here are some pics that I posted up on Mobile Me -

Job is still going well. Busy as ever! There's never a dull moment around the office. Sometimes I get so overwhelmed but it's good for me. I love the challenge and excitement I get from working for Apple.

Lauren is great. She's being the typical teenager but she's 14. She's allowed to be a handful. It's her job. Nothing life-threatening. Doing well in school. She's not too much of a hell-raiser like I was.

What else...been working out a lot. Some of those Maui pics have opened my eyes to how much I've slacked off with my diet and working out. I'm back in the saddle! I'd like to pick up Pilates again but it's so expensive. And I have no desire to start teaching again anytime soon. Maybe one of these days...

Oh and I ditched the half-marathon. I am still running but my mileage has hovered around 4.5 miles. I got up to 6 miles and just lost my mojo. I might try again next year but we'll see. I seem to have a problem with being obligated to do extra-curricular activities. I think b/c I have so many other obligations I HAVE to take care of, I lose interest in the other stuff so quickly. At least I've noticed this pattern and I can work on

Anyway, I have the post-vacation blues but I am slowly coming out of it.

Man, I should write more often. I've lost whatever writing talent I ever had. This entry is awful! lol
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1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?

Collected unemployement

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I am not sure I made any for 2009. This year, I just want to strive to be a better person in everything I do.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?


4. Did anyone close to you die?

My granny.

5. What countries did you visit?


6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?

Willpower, self-control

7. What date(s) from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Pretty much the first two weeks of January - lost my job, Rob and I broke up again and my grandmother died...then my computer went kaput. It was a tough month.

May 19 - my first day at Apple.

June 20 - my first real date with Scott...and the first night we got

Mid-Sept - I said a final goodbye to a huge distration in my life. He came back around in November but I was strong and held my ground. I will no longer let this person worm his way back into my heart anymore. It's so over, there should be another word for how over it is! (name that cheesy TV show!)

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Standing up for myself
Elliminating one of the most toxic people in my life
Getting through 5 mos of unemployment
Getting a job with one of the best companies
Running two 5Ks, a 10K and a 2.5 mile relay and I'm still running!
Getting Lauren into one of the best schools in the city
Buying a new car

9. What was your biggest failure?

I could have done a lot better with money. Spent more time with Lauren.

10. Did you suffer any illness or injury?

I don't remember being sick this year. Other than the little bug I had the week of Christmas.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

My car - Lucille II :)

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

Lauren - she's always been such a great kid.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?


14. Where did most of your money go?

Mortgage, bills, food, Aveda hair products and eBay (lol)

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Ghostland Observatory
ACL Fest
Lazy Sunday afternoons with Scott

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?

"1901" by Phoenix

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? MUCH happier!
ii. thinner or fatter? Same
iii. richer or poorer? Richer, in so many ways....

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

Travelling, trusting

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

Over-analyzing, worrying

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

Had Christmas here at my house :)

22. Did you fall in love in 2009?


23. How many one-night stands?


24. What was your favorite TV program?

The real Housewives...god, I am so ashamed!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

I don't hate him but I'm so glad to have Chris out of my life!

26. What was the best book you read?

I didn't read any books last year. :\

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?


28. What did you want and get?

A job!

29. What did you want and not get?

A couple of jobs I interviewed for...thankfully!

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

The Hangover

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

Ate dinner with Scott at Wink. I turned 32. :)

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

A trip to Napa! Haha.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?

Ugh...a struggle.

34. What kept you sane?

My family, friends, red wine and running.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Not sure...

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

The economy. Unemployment.

37. Who did you misss?

Carrie...I feel like we've only seen each other like 30 mins all year. :\

Jessica...We had so much fun while she was here in Tx. I hope we get a chance to hang out sometime very soon!

38. Who was the best new person you met?

So many....Scott (of course), Jessica (in real life), her husband Phillipe, Diana, Daniel, Caroline, Gloria, Glenn, Karoni, Katie

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:

My relationship with God has really developed this year. I am starting to really understand the concept of handing things over to a Higher Power. There are times in life when you just have to let go and let God take the reins. This year has taugh me that no matter how rough things get, I am truly blessed by what God has given me.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

I've learned to let go what I cannot change.
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i know i am about 8 yrs behind everyone else in the world. but .....i really, really, really need to stay off of eBay....seriously....i'm cutting myself off. i have a problem.
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I got the Apple job. I know a lot of you probably already know but I've been holding off making an official announcement. I was really nervous about jinxing myself. It seemed too good to be true! I went in this morning and signed my offer letter, filled out paperwork and set up my start time with staffing.

I start Monday morning at 8:30am. WOO for having a steady paycheck again! And health insurance. And Dental! :))))
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